Sunday, January 6, 2013

Not my regular type of post (you've been warned)

I was debating whether or not I wanted to post about this. Despite having a blog and sharing a lot online I am a pretty private person and don't like everyone to know all of my business. You have probably noticed that I keep my blog pretty positive and I'm a little worried about sneak attacking you guys with some sad stuff. In this case I really want to share this though because it would feel wrong to pretend that everything is fine when it is not.

On Thursday afternoon my Grama, who I was very close to, passed away. It was slightly unexpected but not totally because she had been in the hospital for a few months now. I don't really want to focus much on this part though. I just wanted to talk about how awesome my Grama was.
I spent a lot of time with my Grama while I was growing up. I have been told that when I was really little I couldn't say Grama and I would run around calling her Munga. I loved watching my Grama play Nintendo (which she still did up to the time she went into the hospital) while eating cheese & mustard sandwiches. My Grama taught me how to knit and later how to sew. She would make us tea and give me Arrowroot cookies.

My Grama was a great talker and could tell stories all day long. She said hilarious things and so many people who met her told me how witty she was. She had a good sense of humour and I felt like I could say anything to her.

I loved my Grama very much and I will miss her everyday. I'm sure I am forgetting so many little important details that I want to share but I'm happy to have had the chance to tell you a little bit about what a cool Grama I had. Oh yeah, one more cool thing was that my Grama spelled Grandma differently than anyone else I have ever seen. She's the original rebel.

Today is all the funeral stuff so I know it will be kind of a hard day. It will be nice to see everyone who loved my Grama all in the same place though.

Thank you so much for reading this.

♥elycia

94 comments:

  1. I am so sorry, lovely lady. I was never close with my grandparents, however I wish I was. You should feel very proud that you two were so close, that is beautiful. Lots of warmth your way. Remember, at least in my opinion (yours may differ!) she'll always be with you.

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  2. I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. My grandma Jane passed away a few years ago and I was extremely close to her (she lived with us when I was growing up). I still think about her everyday and am so thankful to have known her.

    I understand (at least to some extent) what you are going through and I hope you can find some peace and hope in the days ahead.

    Thank you for sharing such a personal part of your life with us. I wish you all the best,

    Hannah

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  3. She is absolutely beautiful. My thoughts are with you and your family <3 thanks for sharing, she sounds like such a fun lady! x

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  4. I'm so sorry to hear this Elycia. I'm thinking of you and your family. Take care.

    xxx

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  5. may you find peace & comfort during this time. i'm so sorry to hear of your loss. there are always times in our lives where we need love & support from others & it's ok to ask for it. glad you felt ok to share with us your close memories & times with your Grama. it's always special to me to see that we all call our loved ones those special family names. sending you & your family big big hug. ( :

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  6. What a sweet post Elycia :)
    I know how you feel because I felt the same way years ago when my grandma passed away!
    I grew up with her and she told me tons of fun stories about her life!
    she was an amazing woman!
    She lost her husband (my grandpa who I never met because when he died my mother was a little girl) and my grandma grew up 3 children by herself!
    I really respect her life and she inspires me everyday!
    Think about the amazing life she spent with people who loved her! :)
    Love you
    xoxo

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  7. Awww, very sorry to hear of your loss elycia. The deeper the hurt reveals how deeply you loved her, you'll carry that with you as a tribute to her always. And don't 'worry' about posting matters of the heart, there's a special beauty to that! Hugs.
    mel
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  8. My condolences. I wish you healing through this hard time. ♥

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  9. She sounds amazing, thank you for sharing her story :) and I'm sorry for your loss xox

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  10. I'm so sorry Elycia, my heart is with you and your family. I love that you shared a little about your awesome times with her and how amazing she was. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't miss both my grammas and how amazing they were. It's always good to hold on to what they passed on to you and how truly amazing grammas are to the core.

    xx
    trisha
    veranellies.blogspot.com

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  11. I'm so sorry for your loss. I have always been very close to my grandparents. My grandfathers have been gone for years now but I still have both of my grandmothers. I don't like to think of my world without any grandparents. They are so very special. I hope you and your family can hold each other close and find peace during this time.

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  12. Your Grama looks (and sounds) like a beautiful lady. It's so wonderful that you have these memories of her. I hope today is not too hard and that you can come together and celebrate her life and the impact she had on yours. I lost my Pa a couple of days before Christmas, so I've just been through these feelings myslef. Sending love and hugs you way
    xo

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  13. NES playing grama! She sounds like she was amazing! And, she has my sense of style, I can tell from the picture. I'm very sorry for your loss, it really does sound like the world lost someone wonderful :/

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  14. I'm so sorry to hear about this! You can tell that you really loved your Grama. She sounds like such a lovely lady. I hope that you are able to celebrate her life and mourn her passing being surrounded by love and peace.

    xoxo,
    Laura

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  15. sorry for your loss , it is very hard when you lose someone close to you .
    i hope that u will feel the comfort of your family and friends at this time .

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  16. I'm so sorry for your loss. She sounds like she was a very special lady.

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  17. aww, big hugs. she sounds like an amazing lady! thank you for sharing with us. i lost my sweet granny this summer and my crafty mom-mom years ago. grandaughters and grandmas share such a special bond, and i'm sure all our gramas are looking down on us and smiling.=)

    xoxoxo

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  18. I'm so sorry about your loss. Just remember you'll always have the memories of your time together. xx

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  19. I'm sorry about your loss, Elycia. Treasure those precious memories you have about her :)

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  20. I am so sorry to hear of your loss. But, you did the right thing in sharing incredible parts of your Granma with us. It helps with your healing and lets us in a bit more into your world. Take care!

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  21. I know you hear this a lot, but my condolence for you loss. I know what is to have a gradma that raise you and it's not your second mama, is more then that. To have a gradma that is a lot like you, and teach you a lot of things. I know what is to have a lively gradma that can keep up with you. And see her faith away a little time by time. I haven't lost my gradma yet. I just lost my grandpa that was like a protector of mine. But I imagine that I will feel like you. I believe that the only away to honor her is to live her through you.

    Hope you find the peace you need.

    Kisses

    http://thedailymiacis.blogspot.pt/

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  22. aw, i am so sorry to hear this. i am so close with my grandparents too, and to be honest the thought of losing them makes me feel so incredibly sad. i just wish they could live together. to have someone in your life with so much love and so many stories is such a special thing. your grama looks adorable and i love all the things you mentioned about her! she was probably so happy to have a granddaughter like you!!! you will keep her spirit around through your crafty side (just like her!) with your knitting and sewing!

    thinking of you and your family, hoping you guys take comfort in the love you all have for your grama and all of the special memories you have of her! celebrate her life! that is always the way i think about losing my dad.

    xoxo

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  23. Take care, Elycia!
    My grandma taught me all my crafty skills too & tho I still miss her a lot every day, I love that I get to keep that connection to her through my work, you know?

    I'm glad you posted this here.

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  24. Very sorry for your loss. Your Grama was a pretty cool lady.

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  25. So sorry to hear of your loss, she sounds like a wonderful woman. I've no doubt these next couple of months in particular will be hard, but you've got people around you that love you and will help you through your grief. Don't ever feel bad for your feelings, it's a journey, and everything will seem a little brighter eventually even if it doesn't feel like it right now xxx

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  26. So very sorry to hear that. Both of my grandmas are gone. This month will be 5 years since my closest grandma passed. It still hurts today, but I really try to think of the good times before she got Alzheimer's and couldn't recognize me anymore. You're very lucky to have had your grandma in your life. Hugs! Jes

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  27. Thanks for sharing with us; she sounds like she was an amazing woman.

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  28. Elycia, I can totally relate to how you feel about your Grama. My grandma was so cool that her swag was on fire everywhere she went and everyone knew it. I'd rather hang out with her than girls in my own middle or high school, she was that cool.

    My grandmother always told me that when she is gone one day, not to mourn over her loss..but to celebrate her memory and to bring everyone the memory of fun and happiness through her existence. It was hard at first for my loss back in 2008, but when I had my son on her birthday the next year, I knew that even with a loss so hard...she was there with me and would give me a life that could make her smile.

    Plus, she gave me an amazing man a year or so later in Colorado, of which I decided to move in order for my son and I to be with. Special grandmas open special doors for their grandchildren, so think of it that way! ;]

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  29. I'm so sorry to read of this sad news. My thoughts are with you and your family during this difficult time. She sounds like she was someone very special. xx

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  30. i´m so sorry for your loss!!!
    sounds that your grandma was a wonderful and special person.
    she will always be in your heart!
    my grandma was the same to me as yours to you.
    it´s hard to let them go, but every time we remind them, they will be near.
    always!
    wish you the best.
    let your tears run out and remember her how great she was!

    hug
    eni

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  31. I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. :( but that's so great that you were able to have such a special relationship with your grandmother! You'll always have that to cherish. :)

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  32. I am so sorry for your loss. I will keep you in my thoughts today <3

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  33. I am so sorry for your loss, dear. You and your family will be in my thoughts. Sending lots of love and positive vibes. x


    <3 Melissa
    wildflwrchild.blogspot.com

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  34. I'm sorry for your loss m'dear. You're Grandma sounded like a very awesome lady. Sending love and hugs your way.

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  35. I am so sorry about your loss :(
    I know what it feels like because my Grandfather passed away just a few years ago.
    Stay strong <3

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  36. I'm so sorry for your loss! Your Grama sounds like the coolest Grama ever (nintendo?!) and you obviously have great memories to treasure. I hope that you have lots of love and support for the next little while - you will be in my thoughts.

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  37. I'm really sorry for your loss, hon! I lost my grandfather a few years back and he was to me what it sounds like your Grama was to you. I'm glad you cherish those memories and that you were so close to her.

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  38. Sorry to hear about your grandma. It's really difficult to lose people you're close to.

    <3 Bethany

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  39. I'm so sorry for your loss Elycia. Love to you and your family. This is a time to spend time with them and remember her in their faces. X

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  40. I am sorry you said goodbye to your grandmother, I was very close to my nan and much like yourself I pretty much hung out with her all the time when I was younger. We are better people for having had these amazing women in our lives, I wish you lots of love and hugs at this sad time xx

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  41. Aww! She looks and sounds like a really cool Grandma, hope you're ok xx

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  42. So sorry to learn of your loss Elycia, she sounded like a wonderful woman.

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  43. Aww...I'm so sorry to hear about your Grama. :( My Grandma died in October and I know how hard it is to lose someone you love so much. Good luck getting through today...sending you good thoughts! <3

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  44. i'm so sorry, elycia :( my condolences.

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  45. She was so pretty! I love that picture of her...thanks for sharing with us, hugs and blessings for you and your family xoxo

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  46. So sorry for your loss.
    Sounds like you have lots of fond memories of time spent with her. This will probably help you through these difficult days.

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  47. Oh my darling. I am so, so sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with your family.

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  48. Elycia, your grandma must have been a really unique and absolutely awesome person. I am very sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing all these little anekdotes with us.

    Sabrina

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  49. I am sorry to hear about your loss. Your grandma seemed like a lovely lady.

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  50. I'm so sorry for your loss. Many hugs. X

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  51. Hey, we're in the "club." My grandmother passed away the day after Christmas. She, too, was in the hospital for a while, so it was not unexpected, but horrible nonetheless. Hang in there, I know it sucks. Thinking about you.

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  52. I am so sorry for your loss. I don't know you personally, but like to think that knowing how you are, you will carry a piece of your Grama with you everyday (as I'm sure you did before her passing anyway). I'm sure she is very proud with whom you have become. Especially knowing that she helped mold you. Here's to Grama! Cheers!

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  53. I lost my grandma four years ago and it's honestly one of the hardest things i've ever had to go through, so I hope with all my heart that you are ok, Elycia! Just remember more wonderful things about your Grama and always smile when you think about her. Don't be sad that she's no longer here, be proud that she was part of your life :) x

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  54. SO sorry to hear your sad news. The picture of your Grama is beautiful, she looks like she has such warmth in her eyes.

    Much love x

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  55. elycia, i am so sorry to hear for your loss. i lost my beloved grandmother on new years day last year. you are going to go through some hard times and you wont want to share it on the blog. that's completely ok. be honest that you're sad, be honest that you're not being honest. we will be here. but dont let yourself stop talking about it with the people you love. i stopped crying about it with my boyfriend bc i was afraid i wasnt allowed to anymore and i went into a very dark and bad place. grieving is a process people dont talk about a lot, so when it comes time for you to go through it, you dont know how to act. take care of yourself during this time. we are all here for you.

    xxoo
    gab

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  56. I'm so sorry Elycia, she sounds like she was an amazing woman. Sending love and good thoughts to you and your family xo

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  57. I'm really sorry, Elycia! I've lost my grandma, too, and it's hard. Your grandma sounds amazing, though (playing Nintendo and witty humor?! Awesome!), and it's so great you got to have her in your life. I'll be praying for you and your family!

    flashbacksummer.blogspot.com

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  58. So sorry to hear about the loss of your Grama. I know that I still miss mine every day. Lots of love to you and your family.

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  59. Your Munga sounds awesome! I wish I could have met her! XO!

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  60. this made my eyes burn and water. My condolences <3

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  61. Sorry for your loss, Elycia. Thank you for sharing what makes her special. She'll be honored with every craft she taught you. Lots of love for you and family/friends!

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  62. I'm sorry for your loss, darling. I'll keep your family in my prayers. I'm glad you were blessed with such a great Grandma :) >>digital hugs<<

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  63. I'm so sorry for your loss Elycia =( Your Grandma sounds like she was an amazing person to know, and to have such an amazing relationship with =) Thinking of you at this difficult time xx

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  64. So sorry for your loss! I'll keep you and your family in my prayers. xo

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  65. I'm so sorry, Elycia. She sounds like she was an amazing person. Lots of strength and love! <3

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  66. My sincere condolences Elycia...I lost one of my grandmas last April and it is hard, but we just have to remember all these amazing memories and never forget them. I'll say a prayer for her. *hugs*

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  67. It sounds like she was a lovely lady and that she was very loved by you and the rest of her family. It is so hard to lose someone so close, my thoughts are with you and your family.

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  68. I love this picture of your Grama. She looks and sounds like a fantastic lady. I'm so sorry she is gone. May her fiery rebellious spirit live on! ♥

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  69. Much sympathy, Elycia. This day is coming for a lot of us and there's no better way to describe it: sucky. But I'm glad you got to know such an awesome lady. (The Nintendo comment made me laugh out loud - in a good way, of course!)

    I'm going to go on a websearch for Arrowroot cookies now - because Grandmothers rock!

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  70. My Grandpa who I was very close to passed over the holidays.. It was really hard, but remembering the good times we had together has helped a lot! I have had a draft post in my queue since the funeral but tear up every-time I try to write it. You have inspired me to finish it.

    Thanks Elycia & Stay strong things will look up for you soon!

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  71. I'm so sorry for your loss, it's really hard losing a grandparent that you're close to and that you shared so much in common with. She sounds like such a wonderful and awesome person.

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  72. Oh Elycia, I'm so sorry! She sounds like such a great character. It's so brave of you to share this with us, too, and to admit that life has shades of dark and light. My thoughts are with you and yours x

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  73. I just saw this - I am so sorry for your loss. The Grandma relationship is a very special one!

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  74. I'm so sorry for your loss, she sounds like a pretty amazing lady. xx

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  75. oh no!! I'm so sorry Elycia!! xoxo

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  76. Hugs and love darling. Sorry for your loss, she sounds like an awesome lady

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  77. There are no words for times like this, but I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet Grama! You are lucky to have had a close relationship with her :)

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  78. So sorry to hear about the loss of your Grama. Take good care of yourself.

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  79. Aw, I'm so sorry :'( I know how difficult these things are. She was adorable. Just remember it's not goodbye, and you'll see her again someday. These things suck, but it will get easier. Stay strong, girl. Love you!

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  80. Hey! I am really sorry to hear of your loss. It looks like you have some wonderful memories with a very special lady. xo

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  81. Thinking of you lots <3 So wonderful to have special memories of a lovely gramma. Much love.

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  82. I am so sorry for your loss Elycia - but I really love that you were able to write to her memory and share this with us. It's wonderful to hear about your love for her - I am sure she would appreciate and love your kind words!

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  83. Thank you for posting this, and thank you for sharing a little bit of your grama with us so we could know her a little bit too. That whole thing with the Nintendo and the sandwiches made me laugh, a lot. My thoughts to you and your family.

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  84. Here is a big electronic hug from across the pond.

    I attended my Oma's funeral on the third, but it wasn't until three days later I could get my head around what to say about her on my blog.
    So many fond memories - it is so damn hard to find the words. What a beautiful post.

    So sorry for your loss
    Stef

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  85. I'm sorry for your loss but it's really good that you're trying to be positive and focus on the amazing woman she was. It's great to remember the amazing people who touched us and keep them close in our heart. xo

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  86. Your Grama was beautiful, inside and out. Thank you for sharing her with us!

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  87. My condolences on your loss. Your Grama sounds like she was a really cool, sweet lady.

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